It’s cold. It’s winter.
IT’S ALMOST CHRISTMAS!
And in just a few days, it will be another thing.
our seventh wedding anniversary.
I think this is the perfect time for a little give away to my lovely friends on this blog! So here it is…
A Christmas Light Canvas.
Read a bit farther to understand why I chose the word BELIEVE and to see how to enter the drawing to win.
I hope that this winter finds a glow in your heart. The privilege to BELIEVE. even when it’s hard.
A bit over 8 years ago, my Big Guy and I met for the very first time.
I from the East.
He from the West.
Just in case you didn’t know, I LOVE a happy, fuzzy romantic love story. One of our first ‘run ins’ was at the bottom of a Rocky Mountain foothill under a gorgeously lovely moon that was edging the frigid clear night with it’s impossibly soft warmth…..
a perfect set up for some heart sparks to fly.
Instead, I was bleeding red all over the front of Steve’s grey jacket and was convinced that every breath would be my last. That’s what happens when the most lovely innocent toboggan ride with girlfriends ends abruptly.That’s what happens when barbed wire meets face.
Cruel cold steel wired across flesh. And scars were created. It was ugly. And scary. And not at all what I planned.
I don’t believe in omens but do I believe in God’s omnipotent plan for our lives. Sometimes, in my wandering moments, I wonder if God was trying to tell us something way back then. That He makes beauty out of bloodshed. He keeps us breathing when we have no strength left to keep going.That life doesn’t always make rational sense.
Exactly a year after that accident, my heart had come a long way. I was learning trust and love and commitment and laying down silly notions and ideas. (yeah. i’m still working on that stuff:)
One thing was bigger then ever…those lovely heart sparks were flaming higher and hotter then ever! We were getting married!
December 7, 2006
The day I thought I would die.
December 7, 2007
The day I promised my life to the best Big Guy in the world.
happy happy wedding day!!!
(i laugh to think of all the near disasters that surrounded even that day)
The ironic thing was, the year before, I had gone west to teach a tiny school and carve out time with my Heavenly Father and try to figure out some hard questions of life. I wasn’t interested in guys.
But girls will be girls.
And when that true Love steals into your heart no matter how much you try to deny it….well, lets just say I was honored and thrilled!
It’s been seven years. There’s been bloodshed in our hearts. But there’s also been warm hugs that take in all the pain. So much love that pain morphs into beauty.
So many wonderful moments and happiness.
But we still live in a fallen world. As long as we are here, we face it.
Sometimes its hard to BELIEVE.
When I want my way and I don’t want to play fair and I am sure we are heading for disaster. When I let ridiculously small unimportant everyday things turn into a monstrous block wall. When I bang my head against it and wonder why it doesn’t budge. When I misunderstand.
It’s hard to believe.
When life hands me things I never asked for and warps my confidence that God is good. All the time.
It’s hard to believe.
When I don’t know what will happen next in life and it feels like your stuck in the waiting room. And you don’t want to be there.
It’s HARD to believe.
When others hurt and you can’t take away their pain.
It’s hard to BELIEVE!
I never would have believed my life if you had laid it out orderly for me while I was packing my bags for Montana 8 years ago.
It has been so wonderfully GOOD and GRAND!
But it’s also been brutally hard.
(Don’t we all have our own hard battle to face!?)
It is my life. And I embrace it.
Because I believe!
And that’s all because of God, my loving Father, who has PROMISED
(FOREVER AND ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT)
to keep me and never leave me.
My husband. My amazing wonderful Big Guy that has taught me to trust and love and given me a safe place for my heart to come home.
My angel cchildren in heaven
the Wee One we never met,
who’s name is music to my ear
longing in my heart,
hope in my future.
who amazes me
calls me Mom.
and I love like crazy.
because God has put so much love and peace and hope in the midst of the blood and tears.
So here’s my wish for you this Christmas.
The chance to experience God.
It’s something we must each do for ourselves.
Let me assure you. He will meet you and love you and forgive you.
He delights in you.
So here’s the deal.
This is a white canvas done in Silver script and snowflakes with 50 lights. It measures 16×20 in. and has easy access to the Christmas light’s plug.
Leave your name in the comments below to enter this giveaway. The winner will be announced on Monday, December 8.
I will contact the winner for their shipping address and you should receive it in no time at all :)